Wednesday 29 August 2012

Damn Fine Words

I'm using the blog my husband and I created to keep his French parents up to date with their little grand children...Hope that's ok?

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I'm not sure when or why my confidence deserted me. But for a long time now I've avoided trying many things because of my blinding fear of embarrassment or rejection. I've quit jobs because I thought I wasn't good enough and I've not applied for jobs because I figured I wouldn't be good enough. I've managed to talk myself out of so many things that I wanted to do all because I was afraid of what people would think of me.

These feelings have not been conducive to my writing efforts. I tried some freelancing but I always gave up as soon as the first rejection letter rolled in with the belief that my work/ideas had become someone's comedic fodder. I wrote a book about pregnancy, which I thought was really good, but after sending it to four publishers (not many I know) and getting either no response or a rejection letter I gave up on that too.

Through all this self doubt though I have never lost my passion for writing. Deep down I know that having confidence in myself and my work would make all the difference, rather than seeking validation constantly from external sources.

So I have made the decision to start my own copywriting business. It's something I've wanted to do for a long time but, of course, never considered I had enough talent or drive to succeed. Things have begun to change for me though. I have taken steps to change my own awful view of myself and be much kinder to me. That means believing in myself. And I'm getting there.

With a 2 year old and a 12 week old the timing might not be perfect to start my own business but that's just another excuse I used to put in the way of my success. When is the perfect time? There's no such thing really so now is the best time I can think of. I've done heaps of research, written a business plan, developed my website and joined the fabulous Commit Action team to help ensure I reach my goals. And I have been. I'm already so proud of my achievements that I feel like a success.

Now I want to participate in a course that has been recommended as the absolute best writing course around. I want to make sure I have the best foundation on which to build my business. I want to make sure I offer the best service to my future clients and I believe this course will be invaluable in helping me make that happen. If I am selected to participate in this course it is going to mean that my work and my business will be the absolute best they can be.

I also fully believe that by completing this course and believing in myself and my business, I will be a better mother and wife, as well as much kinder to myself. Having something else in my life besides motherhood (I love my kids of course) will make me a more well rounded person and happier. And who wouldn't want that?

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